Be Still

These words are so hard in my house. With two very active little boys I am seeing even more and more what that difficulty looks like. However, these are the dreaded words I have heard whispered to my heart so often these last few months by Father God. I know what He is telling me to do, but it is hard. He is telling me, for right now, I need to just be still and wait for Him. This is not what I expected two years ago when Jason and I answered the call to add to our family through adoption. I thought since we knew God wanted us to, that He would just provide the money and we would have our daughter home in no time. I mean, that is surely what He wants since He told us we would adopt, right? Hmmmmm, obviously to me now, NOT. I have come to terms with our place in life right now. It took me a while. I mean, I have to admit, life looks a LOT different than I thought it would. It has taken me a while, but I know we are right where God has us and I would not change a thing. So, we will be still. We will wait. I still believe in my heart that God has called us to stand on behalf of the fatherless, and that one day, we will bring home more children into our family. But for now, we will serve where He has us.

Tired of Sitting in the Boat...

I'm ready to walk on the water. Praying for two precious children in China.

Waiting

I've never been good at waiting. There are SO many children out there who need homes NOW. It is difficult to wait and see what God is doing. Am I crazy or what?!. I know...KNOW...His plan is great and the best way. I'm just a RIGHT NOW kind of gal, and I'm wanting so much for Him to do it in MY time. How selfish is that! This sounds so rediculous to even write. But it is real. The real Tori. I want to bring one, or two or three.... :) of these precious ones home. I know that He has given us the go ahead, just not the go ahead right now. I have much to learn in this time He has for us to wait. My precious friend, Mitzi, tells me often that God is preparing me now for what is to come, through work, and the loss we've suffered this past year and a half. Through every hard thing, I know He is making us, making ME more like Him, to be who HE created me to be. Isn't that beautiful! I don't deserve it. I am so thankful for a loving Father who knows what I need and when I need it. My prayer is that I would just let go of what I want and be who He has made me to be. I know there will be more little L's one day, and when I hold them in my arms, I will know they were worth waiting for. So while I wait, I pray for those waiting for a mom and dad. I pray that believers would stand up and be who God called us to be. Forget the easy road paved with bright lights. May we get our hands and feet dirty loving and caring for those that Father God loves and cares for. May I!!!

Thank you, Father, for Your perfect plan. And even for this waiting. Please make me more like You.